Weddings and dating and trying to hold off the anxiety

I am not getting nearly enough studying done for Wednesday's exam- I dont seem to have the same motivation when it is not imminent but it is pretty imminent now. I have to buckle down for the rest of the week and get all of the stuff I need to get done, done. Of course I would rather play with Myron. I dont know if I like him. I think I do. I feel comfortable with him and I'm attracted to him and I have fun with him. Obviously I dont know that much about him yet and he doesn't really know me and I'm me so I'm starting to get anxious about being rejected. I am trying to remember that I dont really care and I still may choose to reject him as I get to know him better. And I have to remember that even if he decides that he doesn't want what I have to offer, I still have a lot to offer. I have to maintain my initial confidence and try not to fall prey to the anxiety demon. I think I am doing OK. I think Myron is a contender but I dont think he is intimidating.
He initially decided that he was too tired to come to the wedding but I convinced him (tempted him) and he ended up staying for much longer than I thought he would. In fact, he drove me home. We snuck upstairs and hooked up a bit- only a bit, my clothes stayed on and his did too (mostly). I like how he was really comfortable and I think everyone who met him liked him and I was told that I looked gorgeous and that he was cute and that we looked cute together. I suppose at some point we should probably go on a proper date. Konstantin's wedding was beautiful- emotional and elegant and fun. I'm really happy for him and I had a great time. I imagine some people thought it was strange that i brought a date that wasnt' my boyfriend but I had fun with him and it was fair game for a study break.
In other fun news, my car was towed and I had to go to Brooklyn Navy Yard to retrieve it this morning.