and ME emerges

Me not being the Me I love but the Me I love less. The anxiety ridden ME, the one whom I never seem to vanquish for long. The crazy ME that drives men away with my anxiety. The ME that loses faith in myself and the ME that gives power to men who dont deserve it, who haven't earned it. The ME who loses sight of myself. The ME who forgets that I am smart, cool and fun and that is true even if a guy doesnt see it and even if I dont remind myself. The ME who is so scared of rejection and uncertainty that she would almost prefer to be single because that she knows how to do and do well. I would almost prefer Myron to email me that he isn't interested in seeing me again. OK I have to stop thinking about him- I dont even know him!!! I need to get back to focusing on school. I can rock this exam on Wednesday and report on Thursday and reference list. I also applied for a paid research position at school in the substance abuse lab (working with animals).