What I've been up to- sans introspection, that will come later

I went to Dean and Deluca on Friday- I had such a great time discovering all the new gourmet kosher products and shopping for lunch. Great produce, fresh fish - I was just loving walking down the block in Soho, shopping, buying freshly squeezed blood orange juice, walking down my block on a sunny day in my capris and flip flops. Nothing exciting but just feeling good anyway. I cooked for lunch, it was the first time I really cooked in a while (summertime nectar, cheese and crackers, crudite and dips, salmon, angel hair pasta with tomato and basil, summer corn with herbed butter, broccolini and creme brulee ice creams, berries and gourmet chocolate for dessert). After I cooked I went uptown to get a haircut and she cut it really short. I am still getting used to it. I went to uptown liquor store to stock up on wine. I totally missed a flirting oppurtunity- this guy heard me ask for elderflower liquer and smiled because he was buying the same thing. I should have just started talking to him, just for practice. I had an opening and I just let it slip away. When I came home I bought myself lots of flowers for my apt- I just was in the mood to have flowers around, they made me smile.
I skipped minyan and dinner at Harry and Sally's as it was kind of hot and rainy. I was happy to stay in, drink some wine, relax and get to bed early. I had a nice crowd for lunch - Juliet, Scott, Harry and Sally, new guy and a couple of other people. Food went over well and then we headed to Washington Square park for a bit.
Last night I had a party at one of my classmate's apt. It was nice, nothing too exciting but it was good to see everyone. This morning I went to volunteer at an event in the park for developmentally delayed adults. As usual, I didn't really interact with the consumers. I am really not comfortable with people with disabilities. I'm not proud of it, I guess I can work on it but I don't know if I have to, I have other ways that I can contribute to society (or so I tell myself). I watched a movie this afternoon with Elle (freedom writers- I was tearing up through a lot of it. I think that since I stopped medication, I find that I cry a lot more easily (not in response to my own life, but in response to books, movies etc). i guess my emotions are a lot closer to the surface. I am not sure if that is a good or bad thing. It is probably just a neutral thing. It just is.
Heading out shortly to meet girls that I worked with last year in social psych lab. Going for margaritas in my 'hood.
I need to spend some time thinking and writing about what I want, about how to move forward. I could have done that this afternoon - but I didn't, maybe i'm avoiding it, maybe I will actually do it when I get back tonight. I should do it, I should go to the gym this week and use this week off to relax and get together with friends, start getting back in shape and get organized.