I think I am figuring it out a bit

Not knowing what is going on in my life definitely bothers me but I think I am making some progress on that front. I think I have fashioned a plan of sorts. If I can apply to school for this year I will do that and if I get in I will go there. If it turns out that it isn't an option I will continue taking classes and look for part time paid research position and then reapply to MANY schools in the fall. Right now I am going to focus on finishing my semester. When I have a better idea about what is going on for the fall, I can figure out my summer. I do think I am ready for more structure, for a paid position and I am definitely ready for a little more certainty. I think I am going to put serious dating on hold for a bit while I figure this out. Flirting- well that is all good, as I am doing with this guy (mostly online) - he is really nice but not going anywhere (my last jdate guy before I unsubscribed, we have hung out a couple of times, a little very innocent hooking up and nice conversation. I rescheduled with the guy I was supposed to go out with earlier in the week and I told someone they could give this other guy my number but I really don't think I am interested in either of these guys and I won't have time to see them for a couple of weeks. I really need to focus on school until finals are over. (the good news is that I got a 96 on my final project for advanced physiological psychology, hoewever since I bombed that midterm I still need to rock the final).
I have been attempting to eat better and get some exercise, it was just enough mornings of waking up feeling fat and gross. I am really trying to focus on health and nutrition and fitness as my goals. I want to feel good and take care of myself. At this point I am counting how meals in a row I made good choices-- I think I am up to 12. I am trying not to deprive myself- just to make better, healthier choices.