All grown up

Today I am 30 years old- psychologically that is. Since I have been 30 for about 4 months, I am kind of excited to be catching up. I feel like I am ready to do adult things and I feel like I know who I am and what I want. It's pretty great. I would love to know what is going on with school but I do know that one way or another I will get my PhD in psychology. I dont know the where, how and when- but the what and who are indisputable. I am living a religious life that fits me and I dont feel bad about it. I dont even think I feel bad about not feeling bad anymore. I am starting to feel like I know what I think about things I care about and I dont have to care about everything or know what I think about everything. I like my life and my friends and my community and I feel like I am doing things on my terms. I would like to be in a relationship, I want to be commited to one person rather than have the fun and excitement of dating (although I went on a date this week and it was nice and have another guy calling me and spoke to yet another and the possibilities are fun). I am ready to give up infinite possibilities for one good (not perfect- that doesnt happen) reality. And I am hopeful that I can find someone who appreciates me because I have been feeling like I appreciate myself and I know my worth and what I want. Apparently this is what being an adult feels like. It's pretty good. I think I like it and will try to keep this up.