What I like
Went out tonight with Jeremy (btw Harry, he may be able to challenge your title). We went to the beach and walked for about 3 hours. There were some silences but I had a nice time. I am remembering that a date can be worthwhile if you just have a nice time. Having a nice conversation with someone and getting to know another person has value on its own terms. This was a nice evening and we'll see if I hear from him again. It was comfortable and I was myself and I was honest and I think he was too. He is a nice guy and nothing I ever would have expected for myself but not totally unsuitable. It also made me put my evening with Tyson in perspective, I had fun and I enjoyed myself- that is true even if I never see him again.
I realized that what I liked about Jack, Tyson and Jeremy is that they are their own people and i felt like they were mostly honest about who they were. Also I think I liked all the ways they weren't like me- the ways in which they are self sufficient. It's really time for me to lose a whole bunch of things- like my sense of entitlement- I think I need to get a job, ok I know I need to get a job, it doesn't have to be something I enjoy but it has to be a way for me to contribute to my expenses. It would be great if I could get into a school that has a fellowship program but that will be a year away if ever. I can be busy and still have some kind of job. I should not be going from having my dad support me to having a husband support me. I also need to lose my impatience and need for immediate gratification. I think I am working towards balance. I hope so.
In other news- date 2 back on the diet and got a fair amount of exercise. Didn't get any work done but I am going in early tomorrow.
I realized that what I liked about Jack, Tyson and Jeremy is that they are their own people and i felt like they were mostly honest about who they were. Also I think I liked all the ways they weren't like me- the ways in which they are self sufficient. It's really time for me to lose a whole bunch of things- like my sense of entitlement- I think I need to get a job, ok I know I need to get a job, it doesn't have to be something I enjoy but it has to be a way for me to contribute to my expenses. It would be great if I could get into a school that has a fellowship program but that will be a year away if ever. I can be busy and still have some kind of job. I should not be going from having my dad support me to having a husband support me. I also need to lose my impatience and need for immediate gratification. I think I am working towards balance. I hope so.
In other news- date 2 back on the diet and got a fair amount of exercise. Didn't get any work done but I am going in early tomorrow.
posted by Zoe at 11:12 PM
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In response to your profile: You are a daughter of God. He loves you and knows you!
OK these comments are pretty much bull shit. Here I am preparring to shock you with the ultimate harry statement and I have to challenge full frontal nudes and children of god. What the use. How am I supposed to out-do the biblical battles of angels and satan.
If anyone knows how I can block the spam comments (or at least delete them) please let me know. I wouldn't want them to discourage the posting of ultimate Harry comments.
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