Calming down the secret internal crazy

Remembering that this guy is not all that- he is just some guy I had fun with a couple of times. And I know that I get impatient and scared of ambiguity and miss waking up with someone, kissing them on the forehead and heading off to school. I studied (didn't get as much done as I might have liked) and came home to sleep in my bed as I am certain that I will be sleeping on Lia's couch tomorrow night (for about 2-3 hours). I have some data analysis to do for Sinai and I have two training sessions this week for SAVI and a couple of family commitments as well as tons of schoolwork. And I have plans with my SAVI girls on Thursday night and I know I will have a great time with them. I always do. And Alison and Mark are in town from Israel so I should make time to see them. I have a full life and I can make time for Myron if he can make time for me but if I can't see him before I leave to LA - it isn't a tragedy and we can see each other when I get back- or not. He is not the last oppurtunity I will ever have to date a man and honestly he was a mediocre kisser. Whatever happens with him I need to learn to be patient and relax and let things build slowly. All of the things that are easy to tell someone else and harder to do when it is you.