Doing my homework

One of the advantages of being the oldest of five is that when I had homework in elementary school my mom was usually too busy with the other kids to do my homework with me or check on it so she aksed me if i did it and I would just say yes, regardless of whether or not I actually had completed it. I did homework in high school most of the time and in college, I did my homework the semesters that I wasn't depressed. Let's just say my college transcripts are really inconsistent- some are dean's list and some well not so much. Anyway (my favorite segue) I get therapy homework and I try to do it. I try to follow up on the work i am doing in therapy. I try to read the books that are assigned and write and post pictures and think about what i want (this blog grew out of a therapy homework assignment)so this week I was told to recommit myself to my career since it was not getting into school that made me stop believing in myself. And I am trying and I have to say it is helping. I do like psychology. I am excited to start classes in september. I went to the lab on Friday and I got myself there early in the morning and I stayed until 6pm and I did lab work most of the time and I started to feel like I knew what was going on in the lab. I talked to the doc, melanie and ivy about moving forward with the experiment and getting more involved. I felt like it was the first time in a while that I wasn't just talking to them about lab stuff, I was absorbing it and connecting to it.
I met this guy at Casey's birthday party on Sat night and I spoke to him briefly about my studies and research and I felt like I knew what I was talking about and I enjoyed it. The research is interesting and could be important to the field. It isn't the kind of research I want to do forever but it is research I would do for grad school. I do feel like I am gaining skills. Tuesday I have a meeting at Mt Sinai about the research there and I am really excited about it. It is an oppurtunity to finally work with my population of interest.