5 Minute Round-up
I am trying to get 7 hours of sleep tonight so I will make this brief- I keep going to bed instead of blogging (either b/c i was legitmately tired or disassociated or some other reason) so I am attempting to at least catch up a bit before I go to sleep.
The Good news- Swam a mile today, half of it without any breaks; didn't spend the day on my couch watching Oz and other TV but went to beach with James, Erin and my parents; Had a nice shabbat- Sarah was here and we hung out with downtown crew; numbers for Thursdays event look ok- i'm cautiously optimistic- Erin, Alex and Sophie are going to come to support me.
The Bad News- Cried in the car for about half of my drive to my parents,- not sure why I was/am feeling this way. Feeling kind of alone and in need of a hug- and perhaps a drink. I tried to make plans to see friends tonight but it didnt' really work out. I wanted a hug from Sophie but I feel like we dont' have that kind of relationship- we're close but we don't hug- we kiss hello and goodbye- I knew she would do it but I just couldnt bring myself to ask; Feeling fat but is probably (definitely) a result of eating way more than I should have Thursday night through this afternoon- haven't taken my vitamins in that period either; haven't been making much headway on fundraising for the eating disorder film and therefore can't move forward with the project- haven't really been making much of an effort to fundraise.
The mediocre news- hooked up with Pacey last night; weighed in at DVG in Wed- lost 3 pounds and 2 inches off my waist- he altered my vitamins a bit; Did some reading for my class tomorrow but not nearly enough; My presentation in Neurophysiology on Thursday was far from stellar.
Tomorrow- i'm going to class, hope to get a facial, maybe meet Aurora and I need to get some studying done. I'm meeting Casey for dinner/drinks/hug tomorrow night. Hope to blog and get reading done and exercise and feel better- I am not sure if I hate or love feeling vulnerable - I think I could make myself feel better but I also want someone else to make me feel better- I want someone else to care about me and I know that people do and I was tempted to be needy tonight but I both did and didn't want to do it. Wasn't really successful with Simon (were expectations too high? is that part of what is feeding this mood? )
The Good news- Swam a mile today, half of it without any breaks; didn't spend the day on my couch watching Oz and other TV but went to beach with James, Erin and my parents; Had a nice shabbat- Sarah was here and we hung out with downtown crew; numbers for Thursdays event look ok- i'm cautiously optimistic- Erin, Alex and Sophie are going to come to support me.
The Bad News- Cried in the car for about half of my drive to my parents,- not sure why I was/am feeling this way. Feeling kind of alone and in need of a hug- and perhaps a drink. I tried to make plans to see friends tonight but it didnt' really work out. I wanted a hug from Sophie but I feel like we dont' have that kind of relationship- we're close but we don't hug- we kiss hello and goodbye- I knew she would do it but I just couldnt bring myself to ask; Feeling fat but is probably (definitely) a result of eating way more than I should have Thursday night through this afternoon- haven't taken my vitamins in that period either; haven't been making much headway on fundraising for the eating disorder film and therefore can't move forward with the project- haven't really been making much of an effort to fundraise.
The mediocre news- hooked up with Pacey last night; weighed in at DVG in Wed- lost 3 pounds and 2 inches off my waist- he altered my vitamins a bit; Did some reading for my class tomorrow but not nearly enough; My presentation in Neurophysiology on Thursday was far from stellar.
Tomorrow- i'm going to class, hope to get a facial, maybe meet Aurora and I need to get some studying done. I'm meeting Casey for dinner/drinks/hug tomorrow night. Hope to blog and get reading done and exercise and feel better- I am not sure if I hate or love feeling vulnerable - I think I could make myself feel better but I also want someone else to make me feel better- I want someone else to care about me and I know that people do and I was tempted to be needy tonight but I both did and didn't want to do it. Wasn't really successful with Simon (were expectations too high? is that part of what is feeding this mood? )
posted by Zoe at 11:31 PM
1 Comments:
mentals hugs....... naturally i would prefer to feel you up in person but for now....i will send mental hugs and try not to wonder why u didnt call me!
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