Positive Male Attention?

I was at "the room" tonight with Lilah and all of a sudden I feel somoeone grab me from behind and kiss me on the forehead. I turned around to face a total stranger who says to me "pretty girl. sorry". I guess I should have been really disturbed but I just thought it was funny and I was kind of flattered- I must be pretty hard up or demented. Maybe it is a result of all of my recent romantic rejection (people who I should have been rejecting- Lilah asked me what I liked about Jeremy and when I told her, she said that he sounded like a freak (perhaps I am just partial to freaks). I have made a commitment to myself to lose weight and put myself in a position to choose and reject, I am trying to look at verboten food as the self destructive force that it is, it feeds the least secure parts of me. I like me, anyone should like me and hopefully in a couple of months, anyone (and ones that matter) will see it. I went to DVG on Wednesday and I had lost 1 pound (of body fat) and an inch off my bust and an inch off my thighs. I made an appointment for 2 weeks so that I would be on a less intermittent reinforcement schedule. So far it is 2 days of diet, vitamins and real exercise. It's a step in the right direction. I am also using the possibility of seeing Jeremy in 3 weeks and RMDPHDS in 3 months as motivation. It might not be enough time to make the kind of difference that will make them eat their hearts out but I can pretend.
Maybe being thinner will make me feel cuter and sexier and more confident that I can attract a man's attention (a worthwhile man) - although I do think that i was getting there but maybe giving Jeremy a chance was more about being hard up adn less about being open minded. (So terrible when you deign to date someone and they are not interested, I think I thought I would "barter" my education for his financial success and fashion sense). Maybe being thinner will help me stop giving it away for free- like sending my blog to Tyson before I met him. I have to be confident that someone will work for it because it is valuable and if they wont' work for it, they are not the right one.
I think I am heading in the right direction- how far along the road will I be at my 30th birthday in 5 months? It would be great to be fit and have one successful semester of grad school behind me, have some source of income, be a trained rape advocate, have submitted applications to grad schools and be more comfortable in my own skin - working toward completing a triathalon in my 30th year would be awesome. I can do the swimming, I just have to train for biking and running.