Diet Stuff- to be skipped if it bores you- it bores me

Had a long conversation with Aunt Karen today - mostly about dieting. She was saying that what we really need to do is figure out why we are overeating, she bought 4 books on binge eating and they are just sitting on her nightstand. She says she knows she has to see someone. I, however, have been seeing someone for years. That can't be the missing link- at least I dont think it is. I have an appt with psychopharm tomorrow. I have to break it to him that I'm off Prozac and I think I need to get some kind of medication to help with dieting. Or maybe I dont. Maybe I just need more willpower. Lilah asked me about the lemonade diet and I have been trying to discourage her (as I did when Chloe and Anne asked about it as well). I know it is bad idea and not a solution. Yet still I am tempted to do it again (and not to purge toxins even if I can sell that to someone- maybe myself) but to drop weight before parlor meeting for film. It is hard to represent eating disorders education when you look like you have one (thanks mom, for planting that seed, like I didn't have enough weight issues and concerns with representing the project since I am neither a filmmaker nor a clinical psychologist). I am not going to do it- I was tempted to do it and not tell anyone but that is really isolating and I found that last time it adversely affected my social life and I got sick afterwards as well.
Other news- got great feedback on the letter of recommendation that I wrote yesterday and I have research meeting tomorrow and will get feedback on the methods section I wrote. I also spent some time trying to find my old spreadsheets with no success as of yet but hopefully I can find my old jumpdrive or boot up my old computer. I started recreating them yesterday but I know I did a better job with it last time and I don't remember exactly what I did. Exercised today, ate well, spoke to someone about scheduling movie event in Cleveland, went to BBQ at Jesse's so I got in some social time so I have been working on my goals (in moderation) even if I spent most of the day hanging out in my apt. I tried to do more social stuff today but didn't find anyone to do anything with me (beach plans with Gracie were derailed by the weather) - it is making me feel a little friendless. Dateless, friendless- well I have my goals that I am pursuing...right?
End of pity party...I have a lot of people who love me and I can do fun things. I am going to gym with Sally tomorrow and may meet Sarah or Elle later and I have Casey's party on Sat night (hopefully I wont be too lazy to drive in after shabbat with the sibs). I miss my friends who don't live here like Sam and Lois and Lilah but I am lucky to have them. And Alyssa is in town now so I can spend time with her (which I did on Monday). She met this guy she wanted to set me up with but then she found out he is no longer religious. I basically told her to go ahead and set it up as it didnt' really matter to me. Which may have gotten me a date if he didnt live in Israel ;)I know my social life will pick up- Lia and I keep trying to get together and Joan gets back in town tomorrow. I realized that I am not friends with as many men as I used to be- I have male friends but I really dont speak or see any of them regularly and I dont think I talk on the phone with any of them. I used to have guys who really had my back and I dont have that anymore. To a certain extent it is deliberate as once I disentangled myself from Caleb I didn't want to get into that kind of situation anymore. Does it matter? Probably not.