It is all about the swimming

Seriously there are few days that can't be saved by some outdoor swimming. I spent two hours in the pool trying to teach my nephew to swim and then doing laps. I may have a bit of a sunburn but I also have a strong sense of contentment. Which thankfully has been pretty regular recently. I went to lunch with Lilah on Friday (it is so much fun to be able to see her) and she told me I looked good, that I looked like I was taking care of myself. I told her that I am taking care of myself for the most part but mostly I am just content. And I realized that it was true- I am happy. There are things that I am working on but they are just that- things I am working on. No more than that- we all have things we are working on or we should otherwise we aren't going anywhere. Things are really great. I am starting a PhD program that I have been working towards for 4 years. I am completing filming on a project that I have been working on for 3 years. I have a great time with my siblings, I have been getting along better with my mom and my dad has been OK for the past week (that is progress- we even took a walk together and did something that seemed an awful lot like talking). I am happy for Erin that she is getting married and I am thrilled for Lilah that she is happy and moving on. I just really like the people in my life and I like who I am in a fundamental way. In some ways it just seems that simple. At least for now.
It is great to be in LA and talk books with Holden and shop with Lauren, Erin and Sophie and play with Jamie and Adam and hang out with my grandparents and cousins and aunt and uncle. I feel the usual anxiety about wanting to hang out with Lilah and wanting to hang out with my siblings and not to miss out on either but I am trying to appreciate that I am lucky to have people who love me and who want to hang out with me. I know I will have a good time whatever I do but I can't be in two places at once. I haven't perfected it yet but I am trying and the anxiety is a lot less. It also helps that I know that all the players want me around but understand that I also have some place else to be. It kind of sucks to have to miss something when I can spend a lot of time doing nothing but I suppose that is how life goes.
I should get to bed so that I can work on film stuff and hang with Lilah and the sibs and all the other stuff I am going to want to do tomorrow (including load up on Coffee Bean while I can).