Being me

I had an amazing weekend. I really enjoyed camping. It was really relaxing to be in the woods and I met a lot of really cool people. We just had a great time. Rafting with Sean and Jesse and their parents is always awesome and this year was no different. There were some old friends and some new ones and I just really enjoyed myself. I rowed, I swam, I sunbathed on the raft- it was just a beautiful day on the river. And as I was talking to Kim and Sean about some things, I don't even remember what, it just occurred to me that I really like myself. I am the person that I want to be. Which isn't to say that I am opposed to personal growth. I just know that people I like, respect and admire, like, respect and admire me and for all the right reasons. I like that I don't just say that I want to try new things, I do try new things and I wanted to be that kind of person in the past, and now I am. I was talking to Juliet and I realized that I love what I am studying and what I am going to be doing. I was talking to Lois and I realized that I really just do what I say I am going to do. I'm proud of who I am and just like myself. I like myself and I like my life- it's good. The things I don't love as much (like my body) I am working on- I am focusing on being healthy and strong. Kim and I were talking about going to Costa Rica at the end of the month and I may stay on for a few days after she leaves which I think might be perfect. I get some time with someone else and then some time on my own. I don't know, I just feel like things are good. I feel blessed, as corny as that sounds. Sure, I would love to be in a relationship but I know that it will come because I can see how much I have to offer (and Sean and Kim are planning on setting me up like mad this summer for the game) and I just feel like it will fall into place- the right guy will see me for who I am and want me. I don't feel like I am missing anything- maybe that will change but for now I am going to just enjoy being me.