Change in plans

Now I am going to dump Wally (unless he dumps me first which would be great). Over IM today he revealed an angry, bitter, begrudging side of himself which among other things told me "if i had your connections, i would be very successful". He was angry that my prodigal cousin returned to the family and was accepted, since only rich kids get second chances. It was all very whiny, negative and unattractive. This is not someone I want to be with. I can handle him having a rough time and feeling down but I can't handle the victim mentality and what I really can't handle is the begrudging. As Lilah pointed out, men I admire don't behave that way or think that way. Speaking to Lilah, Joan and Bobby just confirmed what I know. This isn't the person for me. He did treat me well and was really nice to me but he isnt a big enough person for me. And as much as I hate to start from scratch, it's not a reason to stay with someone who is not what i want.
The good (and scary news) is that I start with a new patient tomorrow. I have been reading the manual on CBT for kids with depression to prepare and I talked about it in supervision today but I am still really nervous. Dress fitting, new patient, and then lots of editing- hopefully it will be productive. Oh, and I'm getting another new patient as well. My externship is really coming together. I will have at least two individual cases and I am starting intakes on Monday.
These couple of weeks before school starts are going to be crazy. I want to get as much editing done as I can, I have data entry to do for my job as we are putting together an abstract, things are picking up with my patient load and it requires a lot of prep at this point as I am still very much in training and I have helpline shifts. Not to mention Erin's wedding and trying to spend time with Jamie and Adam before they move away- and trying to see my friends before I get crazed with school. So I guess I won't have time to miss dating someone.