I think it's over

I think Wally and I might be done after 5 good dates, we had a fairly disconnected bad date tonight. At first i was upset, although I wasn't sure if I was upset about having to start at square one (not like 6 dates is so far along) and that not quite everything was coming together or if I really thought this might work (or I only told myself that I thought it would). Anyway I was really tired and thought I would go to sleep but I ate dinner and had a drink and hung out with Emmett and some of his crew and I'm feeling so much happier. I am feeling like so much more of myself again. I think that is also what upset me- not so much that I felt like our connection and chemistry disappeared but I felt like I disappeared. I wasn't myself tonight- and now I feel like me again- but I should still get to bed. I know that when I wake up I will have a lot more clarity. It's amazing to try to pay attention to what I feel before I tell myself what to feel.