The problem with cycles is that you have ride each segment multiple times

Getting over someone is a cycle and i think i was cycling out of arnie- i was remembering all the ways in which we aren't compatible and all the thing that weren't perfect when we were together and the ways in which he wouldn't fit into my life and I went ahead and deleted all of the emails that I wrote him but never sent and thought about deleting his e-mail address and then i thought about how he probably doens't miss me anymore and he probably isn't thinking about me and it brought me right back. I remembered how everything was fun with him and how great the play was and how much I missed him and wanted him here with me and how smart and special he is. Not that it matters. It doesn't matter if I can let go of someone who has let go of me. i have to let go whether I want to or not and whether I think I can or not. I miss him wanting to please me and make me happy. I miss him whether or not he misses me and whether or not I should and even though I honestly thought all of last week that I was ready to let go of him. I have been so busy with school and other stuff and i'm not bored and I miss him. I saw a movie that I told him I would report back on if I saw and now I am not sure that I should, I am not sure if he still cares what I think about it. And I still really want him to be happy. I still want such good things for him and I guess I really love him. I suppose it is fairly self-destructive but if I thought that he really wanted to be with his ex and i had a way to help him make that happen, I would do it.
Seriously enough self-pity ( I know I am wonderful even if he doesn't think so anymore) and not enough composing of data analysis instruments.