Victory (in the smallest possible way)

I finally made it to the gym. I was reading my articles (after I finished my lab work- i'm finally getting stuff done) and I was falling asleep and I was so tempted to take a nap but instead I went to yoga. I can't believe how long it's been since i went to the gym. I really need to start working out, i told Lois I would go with her again tomorrow. Getting back into it always gets me so upset because I see myself in the mirror and I look fat and I'm in such bad shape and I have trouble doing all of these things that used so easy for me back in the day. I miss the day. I know that I got into shape before and I can do it again. Once I was finished and got over being in bad shape and feeling fat, I was really happy that I went. And even though I still feel fat I am in a really good mood. I just feel in control of my life, i'm not sure why but I feel like it is on a good path.
I went out to dinner with Seymour tonight because I knew he was depressed and wanted to get out. I totally ate more than I should have (2 rolls with butter, sushi-salmon, some of my steak (about 6 oz) some of my vegetables and most of my mashed potatoes and a glass of red wine). Now I feel full and gross but dinner was nice, we brought the leftovers to Holden since he had class tonight. I think i might be dehydrated so I'm trying to hydrate now.
Going out with Isidore tomorrow night - i'll fill in the details later- now im heading out to a tequila bar with Lois and Seymour.
I'm also trying to figure out what I am going to do for my 30th birthday- i'm thinking of trading in my necklace for a family ski trip to Utah but I haven't run that by my parents yet.