Hoping to get better

I want to get back to my life and I want to get past all this. I want to get through Will's wedding and be happy for him and have a good time. and I want to feel good about how I look and feel. And I want a lifestyle that is sustainable. Hopefully I will get a lot done tomorrow and start to feel a little more productive and drop enough weight to fit into the gown for Will's wedding. Day one of lemonade is almost done. Let's see how tomorrow goes - when I actually do stuff.