heat induced lethargy?
Haven't been super productive regarding pursuing my goals (I have followed up on starting my job and setting up meeting for the movie but have not been reading journal articles or writing intro for Sinai paper- apparently my methods was a decent first attempt- yay!). I have been hanging out with Sophie and exercising and I did get some decent play tonight. I have also been trying to make more of an effot with my appearance and I have gotten some good feedback. I have also been trying to eat more vegetables and really limit carb intake. I think it is going well.
I informed my siblings that they each have to find a date for me and Holden is already on the case. I am not sure that Meg and Will got the message I left them and I haven't been able to reach Sophie and Alex so I guess I only told Holden thus far but do intend to inform the rest of my siblings.
Aunt Karen and I are going to try to keep each other honest regarding food intake- we will see how that goes.
Sophie and I were discussing weight and dating etc. And she made the point that I have never been thin long enough to really get in the game- is that true? Maybe. The times that I was thin for longer periods of time I was involved (emotionally at least) wtih Kermit and then Caleb. I guess I have never been thin and emotionally unattached at the same time. T2GT might make the argument that I have never been ready and thin at the same time. I am trying to make this the time I am thin, unattached and ready. Let's see if I can do it.
I dont believe I will never find someone. I just refuse to believe it. There is no reason for that to be true and negative thinking certainly wont' help me.
While hanging out with Jamie today I realized how much fun I really have with him and how much we love each other. Maybe I should be spending less time with him and more time focusing on my own life but I really love that kid. In some non-sexual, not gross way we are really in love with each other and it is great.
I should go to bed I ahve a meeting with a pysch prof who is teaching this year at a school to which I will be applying. She has worked with eating disorders for a long time and called me to offer her help for my film project. I think I will also sit in on a meeting at Sinai, it is for a project that is very much related to those that I have been working on and I have an open invitation to attend. I am going to try and make it this week (I have just learned about it).
It is sort of hard to get much done in this hot muggy weather. I can't wait for this heat wave to break.
I informed my siblings that they each have to find a date for me and Holden is already on the case. I am not sure that Meg and Will got the message I left them and I haven't been able to reach Sophie and Alex so I guess I only told Holden thus far but do intend to inform the rest of my siblings.
Aunt Karen and I are going to try to keep each other honest regarding food intake- we will see how that goes.
Sophie and I were discussing weight and dating etc. And she made the point that I have never been thin long enough to really get in the game- is that true? Maybe. The times that I was thin for longer periods of time I was involved (emotionally at least) wtih Kermit and then Caleb. I guess I have never been thin and emotionally unattached at the same time. T2GT might make the argument that I have never been ready and thin at the same time. I am trying to make this the time I am thin, unattached and ready. Let's see if I can do it.
I dont believe I will never find someone. I just refuse to believe it. There is no reason for that to be true and negative thinking certainly wont' help me.
While hanging out with Jamie today I realized how much fun I really have with him and how much we love each other. Maybe I should be spending less time with him and more time focusing on my own life but I really love that kid. In some non-sexual, not gross way we are really in love with each other and it is great.
I should go to bed I ahve a meeting with a pysch prof who is teaching this year at a school to which I will be applying. She has worked with eating disorders for a long time and called me to offer her help for my film project. I think I will also sit in on a meeting at Sinai, it is for a project that is very much related to those that I have been working on and I have an open invitation to attend. I am going to try and make it this week (I have just learned about it).
It is sort of hard to get much done in this hot muggy weather. I can't wait for this heat wave to break.
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