Life in the Balance

Yesterday I was talking to Joanie and she said that I live a really balanced life- I am social, I make time for my family, I am a student, I do volunteer work, I do research, I exercise. I told her that on paper my life is balanced and I am trying to actually get it there in reality. I do think I am en route to getting my life in balance. If I can keep myself on track this fall I think I can do it. I haven't been hanging with my friends as much as I might like and I haven't been that productive. I have been exercising in a balanced manner and I have been on top of my relaxing but I am getting myself in my balance zone. I am feeling better- which may be because I can keep food down and no longer nauseous but I may no longer be filling ill because I went to class on Thursday and work on Friday.
School was harder and easier than I anticipated. It was tough to be with other masters students who were accepted in the doctoral program but I liked being back in class and taking notes and getting back in touch with my inner student.
I spent Shabbat with Sarah and I also cleaned up my apt and took care of some errands and finished some work so I feel like I am getting back to being productive and social and it's great. It is great to feel better and get to feel like I am on the road again. On the road to being balanced. I would like a man to be part of the balance but I will work on everything else first. I do think I am really going to stop the random play because while it may be fun, i know that it isn't what I really want. I want a relationship and I really want to start getting some quality sleep. I think that maybe why i have been getting sick- I haven't been sleeping well at all but I may not be sleeping well because I am anxious but I do think that I am having a lot of trouble due to allergies and not being able to breathe while I am laying down.