Weekend o' family time

This weekend was pretty much all about the family. Shabbat at my parents with all sibs except Erin. Long talk with Erin on phone on Friday - we want to try to go away together in jan on some big trip. Sat night I worked out with Meg and Will. Sunday I had brunch with the family, played games with them and watched some old home movies (the weather was abysmal). Later in the day I hung out with Lauren and Holden. It was all really nice. I had a good time and I just felt like I belonged.
Hanging out with the couples highlighted to me that I want to be part of one- it is nice to belong to a family but it is also really nice to be part of a smaller unit- and I want that. Meg was helping Will with his schoolwork and taking care of him because he didnt' feel well- it was really sweet. If she wasn't around the rest of us would have done that for him but it is different. I want that kind of different for myself. It is not that I dont have people who love me in my life- I do and I'm really lucky. I have wonderful friends and a great family and I have so many places where I feel like I belong but I want something else too. I want to connect with someone - I love that I connect with Lilah and Joan and Sarah and Sam and Lois and the rest of my friends but I want a connection with a man and a different kind of intimacy.