And now for something completely different...

While swimming tonight I was deliberately not thinking- just counting my number of laps and focusing on my stroke. Well I was thinking as little as possible and while I was thinking I decided that I wanted to try to live my life- not analyze it or second guess it or criticize it or judge it or rate it - just live it, free of rumination for a while. I think that might be nice.
Not one hour later I was in the steam shower contemplating my desire to please my partner (more than focusing on my own pleasure)- is it overacheiving? some need to be "good" at this? a new way to buy attention (although that feels less right than the former explanation).
60 minutes rumination free-- not bad.
I could mark today's scorecard regarding goals but that probably would be another violation of the new plan- is this possible for me? unlikely but doesn't mean I shouldn't try.