Monday, July 03, 2006

Broken Girls Club

Lilah took some exception to the term Broken Girls Club so I'll clarify. Broken doesn't mean that it can't be fixed.In fact, one of the reasons I am forming this "club" is to get inspiration from the other members. I am not interested in just commiserating with the others but I am interested in looking at the others to help me find my way. I look at Joan and I see how she is happy and married and moving forward with her life. And last week she told me that she used to also avoid being in pictures and lost pieces of her life just the way I do but now she owns who she is and what she looks like because this is her and this is her life. So this week I took a bunch of picutres- well 3 and that is a bunch for me and I definitely looked fat but I also looked cuteandI looked like me, a bloated me but still me. And Lilah is always my rock and makes me believe that I dont' have to be broken and that I can be a pretty terrific me when I fix myself. Aurora is a new member, well not a new member but my knowledge of her membership is new and her courage and attempts to reach out to me and others and be happy and whole. I love you guys a lot and you make remember how this is worth it. I am sure there are other members that I am forgetting now but I'll update the roster later. Sorry for any oversights.
PS- Broken doesn't mean unhappy or crazy or troubled. There are some people like Rach and Diedre are deliberate omissions because I don't think they recognize their status and they aren't working toward fixing themselves. I omitted Stella because I think any issues she may have are not born of misguided love and she is not tortured by herself in the same way. Feeling lonely or unhappy because you are single or just being a chocolate or neurotic is not sufficient inclusion criteria. Later we may inaugurate a few male honorary members.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

am even more funcused (and that with no martinis to speak of) .....anyway, still prefer "the ever so slighlty scraped" girls club: ) but that's just me. and i don't have the stones for a blog :)

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