Quick update before bed
I'm exhausted and kind of nauseous from everything I ate today (some candy, some tings, ice cream, poppers, half a chicken wrap, 6 chocolate chip cookies, some fruit, and a raspberry beer as well as picking at some other stuff at the parlor meeting).
I dont' think I prepared enough for the parlor meeting, I didn't call people and remind them to come, I didn't prepare my speech in advance and I had no idea what I was going to wear. I ended up borrowing a sweater set from my aunt and got dressed in about 5 minutes (including shower and make-up). The meeting was OK, I think some people liked it and were moved by the speeches. I am not sure how much money we raised and most of the attendees were my friends and family. My sister called me later tonight to tell me how proud she was and my dad kissed me goodbye but my mom basically walked out. She stayed to clean up and thanked my cousin for hosting but just asked me if I was sleeping at home. Clearly, I wasn't. I hung out with my cousins for a bit and then drove back and went for a drink with Juliet. It was fun to get out. We went because Juliet was in the mood to go to a bar instead of watching TV in my apt and she was saying that we have to get out more- I think she is right. I had fun on Thursday night and I should be getting out like that more. Meeting new people, flirting with guys, maybe kissing someone. We probably could have spoken to people had we sat at the bar instead of moving to the couch.
I think I have to consider speaking about my experience with bulimia, I am asking other people to share their stories and I have a story too. I say that I don't come out because I am protecting my parents but is that really what is going on? I feel like a bit of a fraud that I didn't get up there and at least acknowledge my problem. I have a history of bulimia and depression and I sat there tonight while someone else was brave enough to share their history with the crowd.
I am going to make myself wash up and then I will go to sleep. And hopefully i will be in the lab on time tomorrow.
I dont' think I prepared enough for the parlor meeting, I didn't call people and remind them to come, I didn't prepare my speech in advance and I had no idea what I was going to wear. I ended up borrowing a sweater set from my aunt and got dressed in about 5 minutes (including shower and make-up). The meeting was OK, I think some people liked it and were moved by the speeches. I am not sure how much money we raised and most of the attendees were my friends and family. My sister called me later tonight to tell me how proud she was and my dad kissed me goodbye but my mom basically walked out. She stayed to clean up and thanked my cousin for hosting but just asked me if I was sleeping at home. Clearly, I wasn't. I hung out with my cousins for a bit and then drove back and went for a drink with Juliet. It was fun to get out. We went because Juliet was in the mood to go to a bar instead of watching TV in my apt and she was saying that we have to get out more- I think she is right. I had fun on Thursday night and I should be getting out like that more. Meeting new people, flirting with guys, maybe kissing someone. We probably could have spoken to people had we sat at the bar instead of moving to the couch.
I think I have to consider speaking about my experience with bulimia, I am asking other people to share their stories and I have a story too. I say that I don't come out because I am protecting my parents but is that really what is going on? I feel like a bit of a fraud that I didn't get up there and at least acknowledge my problem. I have a history of bulimia and depression and I sat there tonight while someone else was brave enough to share their history with the crowd.
I am going to make myself wash up and then I will go to sleep. And hopefully i will be in the lab on time tomorrow.
posted by Zoe at 2:32 AM
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