Checking in

I have been doing it again- procrastinating and waiting for tomorrow to do something including blogging- Sat night I told myself I would do it on Sunday and then on Sunday, I just didnt' do it so I am just checking in now so that it doesn't become so long and too overwhelming to come back. Short version of my weekend- great to hang out with my siblings and I love them a lot and had a great time with them. My parents were fine but there was a lot of stress associated with what I was wearing and how I looked and I felt their eyes on me a lot. At least I didn't sit next to them at meals. I totally kept to my diet until Sat night when I had some ice cream cake with my siblings and then Sunday was just shot to hell- in terms of diet and doing anything producutive. Yesterday I went to sleep without blogging, washing my face or brushing my teeth and I had also taken a 3 hour nap in the afternoon. At least I swam on Friday afternoon and Sunday morning and I gave my brother swimming lessons on both of those days as well.
I also had a slight incident with my mom over my spending and lack of income- and she's right. What my parents weren't neccesarily right about was making comments about my excess of education and lack of job and lack of gratitude (which I tried to disavow) at the table on Saturday.
Trying to get back on track- and trying to find something to wear tonight to the parlor meeting for eating disorder awareness project. I have to find something to wear and I have to prepare something to say. good luck to me