Patience

Last week I tried to go back on the diet I had lost weight on years ago- it worked, I felt great, it was with a nutritionist. It was actually the diet that helps me acheive my longest purge free run- Dr. Vitamin Guy told me that I was compromising my health and fertility by abusing my body and he was the first one who really put it in those terms. Basically, he told me that I couldn't keep abusing my body and expect to escape chronic consequences. I kept to the diet for a few months and I lost a lot of weight. I only started exercising 6 weeks into it because I had so much energy. I really got into it and wasn't hungry and it was working for me, well, until finals and Kermit and going to Israel for 2 weeks and then getting depressed. I never stayed with it long enough to move into the maintenance phase. I went back to him after I lost weight before Sophie's wedding as I was still over 10 pounds where I had been when I last had seen him. I didn't make it as long on the diet this time but I was still really active and then well then what always happens happened. This time I moved home and started school and gained some weight and then after I didnt' get into grad school, I got back to here. Eating lots of ice cream and sitting on your ass will do that. I made an appt with Dr Vitamin Guy and I would like to keep it up with him so I can get to the maintenance stage and learn how to live on his plan long term. He didn't have anything available until July 11th. Of course, part of me was tempted to wait until I saw him and part of me wanted to crash diet so that when I saw him I wouldn't be as heavy. Instead I have been attempting to follow the original regimen he gave me. I don't particularly feel like it is working but I haven't been super careful and I haven't actually weighed myself to see if there are any results. I hate dieting and I like to see results- like everyone else in the world. And of course I am attracted to the quick fix but I realized yesterday that had I been patient and taken the slow but reliable weight loss method, I would be thinner now. My impatience has attracted me to all of these fad diets- I have tried most of them- at least for a few days but had I just tried to make small and steady progress it might have lasted.
I went to look up Oprah's boot camp (i think this week may have been the first time i watched an episode in it's entirety) and the site I found www.oprahsbootcamp.com had links to all these other diets and there are all these outrageous claims like lose 9 pounds in eleven days- I went to the site and grappled with joining for $27. I know it's not really a solution but .... and I figured if I started this diet tomorrow, well, i could have fries and ice cream tonight (I have probably gained over 20 pounds cumulatively just from indulging in "last hurrahs". Apparently I feel the need to gorge myself before I start a diet and I get myself in more trouble b/c often the diet doesn't start that day- sometimes just because I didn't get to have fondue before I started or Juliet offered to bring over Indian food.) So then I did it, I joined, I couldnt' resist the siren call of the diet that is too good to be true. It is one of those food combining diets. I am not sure if I am going to try it. I'm tempted to try it next week- it is too restrictive to be able to follow at my parents house over the weekend. I know, I shouldn't. I should continue trying to follow the Vitamin Guy diet and then go see him in July and see what I should be doing now.