Oh the anxiety!
Not sure why I am feeling vaguely anxious. I went swimming with Karen this morning, had breakfast with Holden and then visited my James on my way to school. I got a lot done in the lab, I revised my survey for Sinai, based on yesterday's meeting, I took care of other community stuff - so it was productive. But I feel anxious, I am not sure if it is because I flushed my cell down the toilet, when it first happened, I was kind of relieved, it gave me some space to be inaccessible for a while. I can call in for messages- do I think I am missing some urgent text? Maybe it is because, i feel like I procrastinated today and probably could have gotten more done and I didn't finish readiong this thesis on eating disorders that I have to return tonight. Maybe it is because I haven't had anything to eat in over 4 hours and my blood sugar is low. Maybe it is because I told this girl she could give my number to this guy and I don't know much about him and what I know isn't all that promising - although maybe it should be - she told me he is fun to talk to and friendly and an elementary school teacher whose kids love him- it is intellectual snobbery about the teaching? Or am I just anxious because RMDPHDS indicated that we would speak last night and we didn't and I haven't heard from him tonight either (even though we have a date set for sunday so there is plenty of time)and it's only 7:30- I may just be that crazy. I liked him but not this much. We had a nice time and he is a good, cute guy- who I am sort of scared to speak to again- wow, I really am that crazy.
Last night I started this book that I bought over a year ago- Women who think too much. I think it might be time to read it and it might be time to finish Evolution of Desire. OK time to go to pick up a new phone and go to dinner.
Last night I started this book that I bought over a year ago- Women who think too much. I think it might be time to read it and it might be time to finish Evolution of Desire. OK time to go to pick up a new phone and go to dinner.
posted by Zoe at 7:20 PM
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I really think it should be Hairy, even though I get the reference. Or maybe it is just the pun. Anyway not sure if you want any thoughts on the blog. I've only started looking at it the last few days (and of course because I am an overwhelming egomaniac - just searched for references to me.)
Anyway that whole "obligatory disclaimer" :-) was just to ask if you could include more dialogue. I realize that it is much more difficult to do, but it makes the stories more meaningful and it gives a better insight into your perspective.
which got me thinking is the blog for you or us. I know it is probobly both. which then made me think what if no one read the blog, would it still be useful. Is there a difference between a public and private diary. I figure they each have their own merits public openness v. unedited honesty.
Anyway I hate to be such a waffle, sorry.
Hairy (and sweaty) Harry, I love me some chocolate (but not sure I would want to marry one). I am trying to acheive some balance of public openness and unedited honesty in the hope that it will help me be honest with myself. It is definitely for me but I share it with people I trust so they can really know me and so that seeing someone else's sturggles might help them with their own. Sarah was saying to me tonight that not being mainstream is so taboo that no one lets on they are doing it, so everyone thinks they are the only one.
I love your website. It has a lot of great pictures and is very informative.
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