Cookies and Candy and Chips OH MY!

I was doing so well, until I had a few cookies last night for dessert and then cookies for breakfast and then candy and cookies in the afternoon and chips and salsa when Alyssa came over. So much junk!!! I only took one dose of vitamins today and one dose yesterday. And I feel nauseous from the junk food. Joan had asked me this week about my weakness and I responded that it was ice cream but I think my weakness is emotional turmoil. Yesterday after I blogged, I took a nap and I felt much better. I had a great time with my company and I stuck to my diet at dinner and then I just started eating dessert, I had a few cookies and some cherries. This morning I woke up and I thought Ok, that was a lapse but then I picked up the paper and had cookies with my New York Times Magazine. I had lunch at Jesse and I started out with salad and meat and then also had stuff I shouldn't have so then I moved to the couch and stayed there through dessert but then I took two rugalach with me when I walked out. I came home and resisted the cookies and had some candy (twizller twerps- so good) and then when Alyssa came I had chips and salsa (which are both verbotten) and a cookie and some cherries and then when she left I finished the twerps and had 3 or 4 cookies. At that point, I started feeling pretty sick. So now it's back to the diet and vitamins. I was lying in bed last night and this morning and I felt my fat and I thought that it would keep me from eating but it didn't. Trying to hydrate myself now.
I had a nice time hanging out with my friends over the weekend and figured that I didn't need to hear from RMDPHDS, that i had a full social life and this dating thing would work out. And then i typical Zoe fashion, I started think that I could contact him, it wouldn't have to be desperate, it could be confident- it could be me not playing games, knowing he wants to see me again and making it happen. Alyssa told me that I may want to call but I know that I shouldn't. When I want to do things like this, I think about if i would be willing to tell people, if I wouldn't tell Lilah or Sophie about it, I probably shouldn't be doing it. But in the end I did, I didn't have plans for tonight so I texted RMDPHDS and asked him if he was feeling spontaneous, I wasn't sure I was going to hear back from him but I guess I thought I had nothing to lose. He responded "Always" and then I asked how soon he could be here- he called me and told me that he had to be in the hospital at 6 am but we set up a date for Monday, it was the only night he wasn't on call or working early the next morning, so I called RMMS to reschedule from Monday to another day this week. In other social calendar news, I was IMing with Simon, who asked me if i was going to Pacey's housewarming party, which I told him I wasn't invited to (I had been IMing iwth Pacey, thursday and friday and we made tentative plans to "hang out" on Sunday, Anyway I jsut got a text from Pacey that it was an oversight and I am invited. so not going to that. I left a message for RLS1 to see if he wanted to see Once in A LIfetime with me, as we were supposed to see it on our date and I dont' have anyone else who wants to see it with me. (we have already been in contact as I wanted to set him up with someone)- we'll see if I hear back from him. I have to go now to get dressed to meet Jesse to see Pirates of the Caribbean - Harry and RMDPHDS said that the visual effects were great and I couldn't find anyone to see the movies I wanted to see. Feeling pretty good now= strong and social and just good.