Worth the wax

Don't get the wrong idea. The wax was not featured in any way. But it was a good date. The best part about it is that I think I was really just me. I think I wasn't trying too hard or attempting to make sure he knew something about me. It was relaxed and I think we both had a nice dinner. And it's nice that he asked me out at my door. As Lilah said I have to go out with him again soon so that I don't build this up into something it's not and then make myself crazy and ruin it. I am trying to enjoy it for what it is- a nice experience, a good dinner with someone who is smart and nice and cute. It is good to know that there are guys worth meeting out there. It wasn't amazing or intense- it was just natural and relaxed. Of course it would be nice if it turned into something but for now it was a nice evening. I want to try and live in the moment and not in my head. I don't want to think about him or analyze this or second guess my behavior or statements. I think I should go finish writing the survey for Sinai now so I am focusing on other things that matter to me, goals that are mine and mine alone. I'm happy in a muted appropriate way and don't it feel good.