So I got my goodbye

Such as it was. It was short and it was clear and it's time for me to move on. It no longer matter whether it is better this way or if things could or could not work - there is no need to think about it and come to any conclusin- it isn't going to happen. That is the end of the story. i can cry if I want but I have to stop expeting things to change in any way. I will not be hearing from him again. Time to throw out his sweats and put away the book he gave me and delete his email address (although since it is Arniemcarniestiein@gmail that is basically a formality). I have to stifle my inner optimist that is telling me that he will come back to me- he won't, heis not going to change his mind. He thinks this is what is right for him and maybe it is. I guess I really value the connection we made and i think it worth holding on to in some form or fashion. I am actually not crying and I'm not taking this personally- somehow I know this is about him, it is not about me. Doesn't make it more fun for me but it helps somewhat. He connected with me but he wants to move on and he moves away and doesn't want to take that connection with him. I dont' think it has anything to do with me. I know he isn't perfect and that there are so many ways that this isn't right but I think I really just value the connection we made (and I do value him as well) and would be willing to see how far that could take us. But we both have to be willing and he isn't- as he said he loves me but from afar. Time to go see T2GT and then get some serious studying done. Good news- after 2 days of non-stop eating my appetite is totally gone again. Thanks Arnie for helping me get skinny for other guys