Some random updates
I have made some progress on applications (none on personal statement of course) but I really need to start focusing on schoolwork again. I should be studying for one of next week's two midterms, especially since I have no free time this weekend. And I'm so behind in the brain lab. I have done work there but no reading and I should be making some progress on the literature but I've been focusing on the literature that I find interesting.
I feel like I have been pushing through this girl on the verge thing- I did two assessments this week and have been on 4 SAVI calls and have been facilitating at the SAVI training. I do think I have been doing a lot of good things and I have been really busy. Busy and stressed. I am OK and I will be happier once I feel less overwhelmed. Part of me likes to be this busy- it makes me feel productive. I guess it makes me feel important in some way.
I have set up Sam with a guy I went out with a couple of times and Lilah with a guy I was interested in. Did I do it to feel like I was a good person?
I don't think I have been feeling as cute as I might like.
Very little happening on the dating front- spoke to this guy once but both of us are really busy, I'm not sure when we are going to meet. I don't even think I have time to date- but I would like to be in a relationship.
Also trying to find a new apt. I think I have a new roommate, we are going to try to meet up tomorrow. I was supposed to meet another potential roommate who also knows Stella. And then she fell through- I know I am probably being paranoid but I am thinking that Stella told her something bad about me. It amazes me that I know how many friends I have and how many people like me and I get insecure if I feel like someone doesnt like me.
I have to start daily blogging again because I can't really focus on how I'm feeling and what I am thinking when I do it this way.
I feel like I have been pushing through this girl on the verge thing- I did two assessments this week and have been on 4 SAVI calls and have been facilitating at the SAVI training. I do think I have been doing a lot of good things and I have been really busy. Busy and stressed. I am OK and I will be happier once I feel less overwhelmed. Part of me likes to be this busy- it makes me feel productive. I guess it makes me feel important in some way.
I have set up Sam with a guy I went out with a couple of times and Lilah with a guy I was interested in. Did I do it to feel like I was a good person?
I don't think I have been feeling as cute as I might like.
Very little happening on the dating front- spoke to this guy once but both of us are really busy, I'm not sure when we are going to meet. I don't even think I have time to date- but I would like to be in a relationship.
Also trying to find a new apt. I think I have a new roommate, we are going to try to meet up tomorrow. I was supposed to meet another potential roommate who also knows Stella. And then she fell through- I know I am probably being paranoid but I am thinking that Stella told her something bad about me. It amazes me that I know how many friends I have and how many people like me and I get insecure if I feel like someone doesnt like me.
I have to start daily blogging again because I can't really focus on how I'm feeling and what I am thinking when I do it this way.
posted by Zoe at 9:59 PM
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