Movin' along

It's been one of those procrastinating days- I got a lot of stuff done that other people were waiting for but very little studying for next Thursday's exam (part of me is proud that I got any studying done for an exam that is a week away but I also know that I MUST do well on this exam and it is a lot of information and I lose a lot of the weekend to SAVI training). I am a little bit anxious about our small group because a couple of the trainees were called to discuss some of the problems we had with them last week. I am nervous to encounter one in particular who is a psychotherapist for 30+ years. I am really not skilled at giving constructive criticism and it is really neccesary to do that as a small group facilitator.
Ate a lot today and a lot of unneccsary carbs and fat. I really need to get back to the gym (I have to find a temp gym until mine opens its promised UES branch) and I just need to eat healthier. I feel kind of gross and nauseous now. I just feel better when I eat better.
I think I have to go to check out dresses for Holden's wedding- it is 8 weeks away. I keep saying I don't have time but I think it is because I have this fantasy that I will lose weight before I have to try on clothes but I am making no efforts toward losing weight other than eating things I want for "the last time" before I start my "diet". I've been food journaling with Sam- I am not sure it makes a difference (other than keeping us connected- which is great).
Even as I feel kind of stuffed, I also feel centered- feeling focused would be good though and I think I need to make myself a daily study schedule with set benchmarks for the next few weeks until my Development paper and presentation.