Day 4 and counting

I was hungry this morning but then I had some water and lemonade and I was fine. I am not sure if it actually doing anything (although I suppose 4 days is too soon to tell) but hopefully I can make it through the full 10 recommended days. I think meals on Shabbat are going to be a problem. I am not sure I can go to Jesse and Juliet and just drink tea for the entire meal.
I want to feel thinner so I can stop dreading Will's wedding. I had such a good time at Sophie's wedding and I feel like my appearance is casting a shadow over Will's festivities and it's not fair to him and it's not fun for me. I want to enjoy myself and partake in his happiness- not dread it all and just want it to be over.
I tried on my dress yesterday and it fit but I didnt try it with a bodysuit underneath and I need to wear one and it was a lit tight around the stomach area- it could lay a lot better but Sophie said it was fine. I told her to tell my mom not to worry- I could wear my gown but I didnt' feel narrow and good in it like I did when I bought it, I just felt kind of fat.