Almost Done

So it's almost the end of day 9- although I will be up for quite some time as Lia and I have to finish (and start) our presentation for Advanced Physiological Psychology- we are such bad influences on each other, we keep getting together and getting very little work done. We both procrastinate and aren't motivated unless there is pressure (like the night before it is due kind of pressure). I hope to get myself on a better (less time wasting, less TV) schedule.
I dont want to think about food and body stuff all the time. I want to eat quality food (when I am hungry) and enjoy it and eat moderately and exercise moderately. Be healthy and enjoy some indulgences (but not junk food and soda- i want to eat GOOD food- if i'm going to eat chocolate I am going to enjoy high quality chocolate and not scarf down some hershey's mindlessly) . I don't want to waste all this mental energy on worrying about what I ate, if I am going to eat it, I want to enjoy it and I want to feel good and of course I would like to stop emotional eating. I want to train myself to feel things and deal with them instead of avoiding them and then eating. I have to learn that just because I dont want to feel someway it doesn't make it go away. I want to be the kind of person who isn't bothered by her younger brother getting married but wanting it doesn't make it so. And I want to be able to seperate my self-worth from my weight.