Cleaning out my crap

This lemonade diet is supposed to detox my body and I want for a 3 hour facial today to clean out my pores, I cleaned my apt and room yesterday - how do I clean out my head? How do I figure out what I want - i think I have figured it out in terms of career (even if I am not always focused and on top of it, but I think I might be like that with anything, I do think this is interesting and I could be good at it and enjoy it) and I think I worked out most of the god/religion stuff- now I have to figure out the rest- men and weight. I think that is it.
In terms of cleaning out other crap- this is what I have been jotting down and meaning to blog about but haven't
--vanity and age lines- should i be focused on my appearance? was I only ok with turning 30 because i didnt think that I looked 30?
-- slacker and trying to get better- i haven't though
-- i have such a good time when I go out, I should push myself when I am unmotivated more often
--schoolwork and needing to be on top of it more
--why am i keeping in touch with isidore?
--part-time job- do I have time?
--why do I want a relationship? do I want one? If not, why am I spending all this time chasing one (although I am off jdate and still have to write this guy from eharmony back). What do I think I get from a relationship that I can't get from other things? Intimacy? do I want that?
--I was at Gracie's apt last week and realized I was on the floor that Caleb used to live on and I thought about all the time I spent in this elevator going to his apt- am I still that girl? I dont think so but can i be sure?