Hmm

Do i miss Arnie or am i bored? Or is it both? Does he miss me or does he have time on his hands because things haven't picked up there yet? If I remembered how amazing I know I am would I still accept whatever scraps he was willing to give me? Do i just want someone to love me?
Ok Lilah just told me that I have to get out of this retreat and out of my head, she told me to go back to my life, the life I built and she is right. I have to get off the computer and out of my head and away from studying. I should go out in my neighborhood and out with my friends. Maybe catch a movie with Aurora or Juliet- going to stats and playing online the whole time might not be best course of action today- i'll go on thursday. I will try to get out and i'll keep y'all posted when I get back from living a bit.