Break up

I think I broke up with Wally tonight in a way that made me look good. I don't feel as good about it as I thought I would. I'm not sure if it is just that I don't want to let go of something (even something less than ideal) without any other prospects, or if I am just used to him in some way (It has been 2 months since our first date) or if it is because the conversation we had prior to the break up convo made me see him differently. I ended up telling him about the things I found really distasteful that time when I decided to break up with him and it seems like I may have misunderstood some of it. In any event, I am sure that I will feel better in the morning. I don't doubt that I am ready to move on, whenever some prospects choose to appear :)
I met Harry and Sally for lunch today and they were saying how I am so much more mature and confident than I was when they met me and I think that is true. And everything else has been falling into place, dating will fall into place as well.
I should get to bed (hopefully I won't be called into the ER tonight) as I have clinic in the morning and class in the afternoon tomorrow. My weeks are about to get really crazy busy.

Quick update before I head to bed (way too late)

I started school and so far I am loving it. I am really pleased with my decision. School just feels right. I like the teachers, the other students and the general feeling. I feel comfortable there and it has only been a day and a half. So far, I like my research supervisor a lot and I think we are going to work on a new study looking at anxiety and eating disorders since he is an anxiety specialist and eating disorders are my area of interest. It is going to be really hard to juggle school, work, research and externship but having work and externship in the same place should help a bit and we are all going through the same thing and want to help each other.
I went to really nice dinner with Sigi tonight to celebrate starting school (vegeterian tasting menus are awesome as are basil mojitos!) and we walked home through the village.
I have been getting to the gym every day this week and I am hopeful that I am establishing a gym schedule that I can maintain (not daily bur regularly) during the semester- the gym and pool at school should help.
I have been really busy with Erin's wedding (which was SO much fun and really beautiful. It was a truly amazing event) and Sophie's departure so I am really behind on the film stuff. But hopefully I will catch up this weekend. I also hope to catch up with my friends this weekend. I am having dinner at Sean and Kim's on Friday night and just decided to throw an impromptu, casual party on Sat night.
Things are good (they will be better once I officially break up with Wally- this has been delayed by his dad's recent cancer diagnosis- I may not have to break up with him as it looks like we are shifting to the friend zone and I'm happy to be friends with him, I just want to date someone else. I don't know who but someone else.
there is nothing to say about Sophie and the kids leaving for Israel since I am in denial that they are really staying there. It is just not registering. I told her this morning that I didn't know how to say goodbye to her so she told me not to but I told her I still needed to hug her. I got on the train with tears streaming down my face but school was a good distraction.
I have a helpline shift in the morning and about 12 journal articles to read while I wait for calls. After that I have a session with my trainer, then a patient and then haircut. So I should really get to bed.