Some random updates

I have made some progress on applications (none on personal statement of course) but I really need to start focusing on schoolwork again. I should be studying for one of next week's two midterms, especially since I have no free time this weekend. And I'm so behind in the brain lab. I have done work there but no reading and I should be making some progress on the literature but I've been focusing on the literature that I find interesting.
I feel like I have been pushing through this girl on the verge thing- I did two assessments this week and have been on 4 SAVI calls and have been facilitating at the SAVI training. I do think I have been doing a lot of good things and I have been really busy. Busy and stressed. I am OK and I will be happier once I feel less overwhelmed. Part of me likes to be this busy- it makes me feel productive. I guess it makes me feel important in some way.
I have set up Sam with a guy I went out with a couple of times and Lilah with a guy I was interested in. Did I do it to feel like I was a good person?
I don't think I have been feeling as cute as I might like.
Very little happening on the dating front- spoke to this guy once but both of us are really busy, I'm not sure when we are going to meet. I don't even think I have time to date- but I would like to be in a relationship.
Also trying to find a new apt. I think I have a new roommate, we are going to try to meet up tomorrow. I was supposed to meet another potential roommate who also knows Stella. And then she fell through- I know I am probably being paranoid but I am thinking that Stella told her something bad about me. It amazes me that I know how many friends I have and how many people like me and I get insecure if I feel like someone doesnt like me.
I have to start daily blogging again because I can't really focus on how I'm feeling and what I am thinking when I do it this way.

Long time coming

I know it has been over a month since I last posted. I kind of felt like I didn't have that much to say or I didn't have that much time to say it. It was a month of exams, holidays, catching up at work and with friends. I think it was all good. Some of everything. Now I am heading straight into crazy zone- all good things (well papers aren't good but they are serving some productive function- of sorts). I think it all wouldn't be so bad if not for the applications.
I can handle giving up two whole weekends to facilitate at SAVI training and school and Mt Sinai and moving forward on the movie and hopefully seeing patients (anyone I am supposed to assess cancels- should I be taking this personally?) - if I didnt' have to submit applications, particularly if I didnt' have to write a personal statement, I wouldn't have oodles of time but I would at least be less anxious (I think).
OK I should probably go and work on applications before training. Yay diving right in!